And another one gone, and another one gone
Another one bites the dust
at least THIS reminds me to blog. The terrorist Imad Mughniyeh is being mourned, he achieved the rank of martyr, but will be respawning no more. He is survived by the silver-tongued devil with a lisp, a few displaced hizbullah members who miss Iran […]

so why not immortality? Why not death being the exception? Genetics, medicine, diet, lifestyle…
would make for a pretty neat answer… bye bye god and such…

Melancholy is sometimes overwhelming. Sometimes, you notice beauty only when you’re melancholic, and it puts everything in perspective.
Sometimes words ring hollow. A letter says more than a book. Sometimes your eyes see color, and things become clear. Words fail, but a simple photo says it all; Love, comfort, warmth, fascination, worry and fear.
Sometimes you stand […]

PC. This is what’s wrong with the world.
The “Washington Wizards”, an NBA team, used to be called the “Washington Bullets”. Apparently, that name was found to be politically incorrect, and it was decided to change the team’s name to “Wizards”. The old name somehow seemed to induce images of violence. Now, when I think of […]

A man in Australia managed to beat a great white shark up and scare it away after it’d already partly swallowed him.
A woman in America attacked a mountain lion and saved her husband’s life.
I wonder when someone in Lebanon will finally take action and put wild animals back in their “righteous” place?

[Procrastination * (Uncertainty + Overload)] + Longing = Self-Loathing.

Opera reignites Islam row after cancelling production. In the play, Jesus, Buddha, Mohammad and Poseidon are beheaded. The Deutsche Oper decided to scratch the opera and replace it by “The Marriage of Figaro”, after Berlin officials warned of possible repercussions (retaliations by Muslims, is what they meant, of course).
Personally, I don’t really get modern theater. […]

Megalomaniacs with inferiority complexes are the most dangerous sorts around.
I know one in Lebanon. Along with Syria, he opposes the U.N. resolution 1701. Syria opposes it because Assad knows that his tentacles in Lebanon are being chopped one by one. Aoun opposes it because it wasn’t his idea. He feels left out. Sadly, he has […]

Wait… it’s over?
Did I miss something? How? Who won? What were the concrete results? The Israelis are leaving, but Hizbollah is neither dismantled nor decapitated! Hizbollah is stopping, but what about their holy war, their righteous cause, the prophet and the nation? What happened behind closed doors?
How is any normal, sane person to believe that […]

When you attacked without being provoked, you are a resistance movement. When you sacrifice a country for your agenda, you are righteous.
Tribal Mentality:
So, you cross into a sovereign nation, kill some of their soldiers and kidnap others. Of course you’re justified, they’re soldiers. That’s what they’re there for. What, the nation wants retribution? Murderers! […]

Iran’s terrorist-in-chief proudly proclaimed today that if Israel bombed Syria, it would be tantamount to declaring war on the arab/muslim world… I guess suddenly, Lebanon is not part of that world. I don’t know whether to be enraged, to laugh my ass off, or to feel relief.
Meanwhile, in the southern suburbs of Beirut, Hassan and […]

Samir Geagea, head of the Lebanese Forces, a Christian former militia which was allied with Israel during the civil war, openly condemned Hizbollah’s actions. “Those who carried out the operation, regardless of its success, have no right to hold the fate of the Lebanese people hostage to their own decisions,” he told reporters. “There are […]

I had two rules for people who wanted me to “let them in”. Don’t lie to me, and don’t take me for granted. Shorter, simpler and better than the ten commandments. However, I’ve recently decided to add one.
If you drink, drank or ever plan to drink coffee from McDonald’s, Burger King, Pizza Hut or some […]

I recently was discussing education with someone close to me. They were studying at a Lebanese university (my Alma Mater) actually… and were going through some tough time. The quality of education, and my gratefulness to what I recieved from (Lebanese American University) LAU notwithstanding, it’s a very heavy burden to jump from highschool and […]

I’d found the book a fun read. The movie was a step down, it felt hollow, cheesy and full of clichees. I got to thinking while watching it, and naturally, I got to thinking about religion.
As usual, I came out with the conviction that religion is a farce. Not that my belief (or lack thereof) […]

So, I caved. Yesterday was very stressful, and I ended up drinking half a bottle of Jack and smoking a whole pack.
This doesn’t mean that I’m smoking again… just a momentary lapse. I’m afraid, though, that when I move into my new flat (best friends, awesome street…. smack in the middle of town)… I won’t […]

I’m back! for brief… later tonight, the real posts come… this is just a preamble of sorts… and in the spirit of Easter… bunny rabbits, chocolate eggs, sunday brunches and all…
This was sent to me in an email…. I have only three words to say:
WHAT. IS. THIS?!

I’ve been an embodiment of Jeckyll and Hyde for quite some time… except that I oscillate between happiness and sadness, rather than good and evil. Along the lines of that novel, my transition phases used to be more painful, but the lulls in between were long enough to adapt to… with time things have changed… […]

I’ve been expecting this for a while. It’s happened often enough before that I’ve learned to live with it, to feed off of it, even, somehow, to enjoy it.
It’s been a struggle staying happy and cheerfull. It shouldn’t be that way. I’ve tried forcing myself, I’ve tried convincing myself, hell, I’ve even tried force-feeding it […]

On the subway ride home, a few days ago, I happened to glance at the wagon behind mine, and was pleasantly stunned to see it exclusively occupied by hotties. Two of them were keeping themselves busy by looking at me, whispering to each other, and giggling. I had half a mind to go over, but […]

I’m a coffee addict. I’m also a cafe addict. I spend a big chunk of my time in cafes. After a while, I’ve realized that I tend to go to places that are a little pricier. The reason is not the coffee itself, although that’s usually an important factor.
If you go to regular cafes, particularly […]

You feel insulted? Go live in the friggin’ desert.
Hello! Welcome to the 21st century.
Things have changed a lot in the past millenium. Nowadays, there are moving pictures that let you “watch” real things happening in real places all over the world (it’s round, by the way). You can write a letter and send it across […]

It’s like you’re frozen and the whole world is going on around you.
The last week or so before handing in my thesis, I ran out of all necessary ingredients. I fought through the last 72 hours purely on the aspirations I had of what was to come. I can’t deal with discussing this all right […]

I’m done with my MSc. Much, much more on that later… suffice to say, it’s as good as over and done with. Not as good as I wanted. Not as good as I am capable of. Whatever. There’s still the defense next week, which would decide severl important things for me, but it’s not that […]

It don’t work that way… you earn your daily bread… how you eventually accomplish that may be very mundane, or very suprising.
For example, last week, I earned my daily bread translating a movie. Granted, I also earned my daily coffee and cigarettes, and my nightly nightcap that way as well..
Next week, I might earn it […]

I injured myself in drama group yesterday. I haven’t been hurt in ages, but yesterday, while “acting”, I managed to twist my thumb, cut open my upper lip, and bump my nose. All whithin two minutes.
Ok, let me rewind. We start out every rehearsal with some “acting exercises”. Occasionally, these include games. It was during […]

However, democracy is a shelter behind which hypocrites hide, measure legitimacy, and weigh righteousness based on the numbers of the ill-informed masses.

Queen Carla had arrived a week ago. Tonigh, her royal consorts were delivered, the numbers are complete and court has convened. Carla is my camera, an old Canon A-1 SLR, full with several lenses, filters, add-ons, etc… it was THE camera to have in the very late 70s, early 80s, and has since developed into […]

The show ends, the theme music comes on, the credits roll, they break for advertisements…
In all TV interviews, regardless of the situation, or topic, the host and guest  always act as if they’re talking, very emphatically, as soon as you can’t here them for one of the above-listed reasons… A 3-hour interview, and they still […]

4:21am. Can’t sleep.
I tumbled around in bed for an hour or so, and then decided, fuck it, I’m not forcing myself to sleep. Naturally, the moment I slipped under the sheets, my brain (conscience) went into overdrive.
It started out with thoughts about my Thesis. It’s not going too well, every pothole is magically magnified into […]

I yawned a few hours ago. It wasn’t a normal yawn. I.LITERALLY.DISLODGED.MY.JAW! Searing pain! I don’t yawn. I’m a very energetic person.
Granted, I’ve slept an average of 4 hours a day since monday. Which is a good thing. I’m somewhat in the zone. Finally. It’s been at least several months since I’ve found myself in […]