I am waiting for my subway. S3 to Neugraben. I get off 17 minutes-6 stops- later. 17 minutes. So many faces, so many people. It’s overwhelming. I face this thought, one I’ve had numerous times before. This is not real. It cannot be. I just think: The faces I’ve seen in my 21 years, the people I’ve talked to, Girls I’ve admired, Girls I’ve loved?..well, anyway…thoughts I’ve had, movies I’ve seen, books I’ve read, scenes I’ve seen, songs I’ve heard, emotions I’ve felt, the number of laughs,memories,dreams,tears…it’s maddening. I’m just one person! billions others around me. Could they really exist? I sometimes imagine everything revolving around myself, I imagine things being wiped out, people ceasing to exist when I leave the room, I imagine it all revolving around me. Is it possible that creation is so enormous? Maybe creation is limited by my senses. What I don’t see is not there. What I can’t hear makes no sound, what I can’t smell is odorless…. I just wonder.

It is just so fucking overwhelming!

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